Slept at four thirty am last night.
I am tired. Very.
My life is in a mess now, and I cant do anything about it.
Yeah, there are many things you dont know about.
I've got so many issues, with him, with myself,
I dont even know myself now.
I am not God.
I dont know when you'd feel left out, or lonely, or angry, or angsty.
I dont know.
I really dont.
How am I supposed to?
Yeah you want me to just let you be.
"It doesnt matter anyway."
What is that supposed to mean?
Are you implying that I dont care?
If so, then you are wrong.
I do care.
Alot.
Yeah, I'm exhausted trying to settle all the crap in my life, but i still care.
So will you please tell me what is wrong?

Are you lost in your lies
Do you tell yourself I don't realize


Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday.
Buried in notes.
Day in, day out.


Life's a trapeze.
If you see me losing my balance,
Catch me when I fall.

Hope decays

HF is terrorizing me online. Help. Hahaha.



Silence, only colours. says:
CAN U HURRY TELL ME THE NAMEEEEEEEE
Silence, only colours. says:
SOCCER?
Silence, only colours. says:
wheyyyy
Silence, only colours. says:
CHERYL DAN
Silence, only colours. says:
IM GOING TO VOMIT ALREADY
Silence, only colours. says:
HAHA
Silence, only colours. says:
CHERYLDANN
Silence, only colours. says:
I GIVE U LAST CHANCE
Silence, only colours. says:
HAI ME GUESS SO DAMN LONG
Silence, only colours. says:
OSO DON WANT SAY
Silence, only colours. says:
HAHAAHA
Silence, only colours. says:
SUCKER






She cracks me up. Hahaha.

The rewind button's jammed.
Jammed real bad.

"Time fries"
-Mr Kwek 22May2007



Died during GP. For the entire one and a half hours, i lay there like a dead pig for an hour. But of course, i was resurrected when the bell rang. HAHA! GP paper will be over by this saturday, so that's good(: Oh, The GP dept was oh-so-nice, they played us a movie for GP lect. It's called Sleepers, and it's really sentimental. Apparently, Huijeen was damn high before we went for the lect, because she said BRAD PITT's in it. Oh heck he didnt even appear luh! But that was only the first half of the movie, so. There were a few scenes that made everyone gasp/laugh/stare in shock. HAHA. You know which ones I'm referring to. Huijeen's fav scene was the one where the wardens brought the four lil innocent boys into this dark place, and the guy went " WHAT DO YOU WANT?!" and the warden replied----. Well, you get the idea. HAHAHA I cant wait for the second part! Where HJ will be ogling at her Mr Pitt.
I cant stand Tuesdays. The day just drags on and on, I've got threehour classes all at one go, with a miserable half an hour break, and then three and a half hours of classes, with another miserable half an hour break, and then an hour of lecture. IN THE HOT AFTERNOON.
Cheryl the zombie.*Hops around with two arms outstretched
My only solace is the canteen. I seek comfort in sipping warm milk tea and chewing on lil pooh bear biscuits. "That's the way, uh huh, uh huh, I like it"
Dont you find it funny that the moment everyone emerges from the lecture theatre, they all head straight for the canteen with starved expressions on their faces? HAHA.
Guidelines:
1. Pack your stuff as quickly as possible.
2. Rush out of the LT.
3. Take the shortest route to the canteen.
4. Find the nearest empty seat and dump your bag there.
5. Frantically dig out your wallet like a mad dog.
6. Brisk walk to your favourite stall.
7. Queue up and/or spot a friend ahead in the queue and pretend to talk to him/her but real intent is to cut queue.


Jy;
Is your heart still with the team?
Tell me.
I need to know.

I used to be my own protection
But not now
My path had lost direction
Somehow
A black wind took you away
From sight
And held the darkness over day
That night

Forgetting
All the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself

My brother is on the laptop, and he's smiling at the screen like a total moron. He cant stop smiling! And he's typing furiously. He's dating someone. I am sure of it. HAHAHA. Somebody's in love.

We were on the pitch. When there was a ROAR. Suddenly dark clouds loomed. (Okay not that bad) I could hear whispers of "Ms Audrey, Ms Audrey". She literally yelled her lungs out. Yeah, some of us seniors were on the pitch, in uniform. Sigh. I hate it when we make her mad. It gets pretty ugly. (Is that an parody?) SORRY MS AUDREY WE WONT MAKE YOU UPSET ANYMORE, PROMISE(:

KPT-ed/Friedrice-d/TehPeng-ed. Tell me, What's new! HAHAHA.

Drake: YOU BIG HEAD KEEP QUIET. You're banned from viewing my blog for life. HAHAHA.

Jinyu: Uh. Yeah same sentiments(:

KERR: Eh Ahlian, it's okay. We wont discriminate you. We're nice people. HAHA!

Justina: Stop skipping school! Be a good kid, like me. HA!

Pris: yeah walau, let's skip school tgt. Shhh, dont tell Justina. HAHA!

KERR: HAHA skipping school makes us happy. Let's skip school tgt. Shhh, dont tell Justina. LOL.(This is fun)

Huifang: Okay luh, since you hugged me, i shall hug you back. In my sweaty shirt. HAHA!

Sheri: Ju-on your ass luh. HAHA.

I look into your eyes
And try to reach your thoughts

This is my cuz, Jeremy Rueben. Why have Tanny and Sheri been telling me he looks like Ju-on? He doesnt! HAHAHA. Okay, maybe a lil. HAHA.

The juniors sneaked up on us! HAHA, yeah picture perfect(:

Somehow i cant put you in the past

I'd do anything

Just to fall asleep with you

It wasnt quite Thank God It's Friday for me on Friday. We handed Soccer over to the juniors. Yes, Exco Elections. It hurt, but we dont have any choice, do we? Madeleine, Jiayu and Hweeli were chosen for exco by the juniors. I believe they would lead the team well(:

And do us very proud.

I think i can finally comprehend how the seniors felt last year. Looking over at the field, (the juniors were having trng) and yet we cant even train. At that very moment, i felt like running onto the field and go crazy.

To girls who wear eyeliner to school, you're trying waaayyyy too hard.

You and me

Dancing the night away

Cheryl is a happy girl because she didnt go to school.

Yeah, it feels weird to be not clutching my shoebag, and to embark on the journey home early on Mondays.
Life feels empty without trngs, it really does.
I want trngs to resume real soon, and the testimonial match to come soon too. J1s Vs J2s. Bring it on man. HAHA.

"Hung out" after school w the usual bunch, without Jinyu and Justina, they both skipped school. "Accidental collision" : We were leaving the Drum, when this girl with a green bag came running towards Tanny, and collided into her. You should have seen Tanny's expression. HAHA. I was trying hard not to laugh. Keli the AhLian laughed. Y'know, Ah Lians. HAHAHA. But yeah, it was incredulously funny.
Tanny stop acting autistic. Or being autistic. And delete that warped photo of me ASAP. Keli, you too! Hahaha.


I could fall asleep in your eyes

Hello there stranger
I've lost all faith

***
It's been like a fairytale, isn't it?
If there's one thing I would change
It would be how the story ends
And we wouldnt have to say goodbye



what hurts the most
was being so close

Happy 18th, Angelia(:

"Cheryl, you need to start studying. Like now."

Everything's fading.
Really fast.

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY ANGELIA!(:

Yeah, I know the four of us have drifted apart like crazy, but i want you to know what i still love you(: I'll never forget what we shared. Happy birthday, I hope you'll be happy always and always(:

***

It's one plus in the morning. School's starting in seven hours later. Had trng today, I'm supposed to feel tired. But tell me, why cant i get to sleep. HF cried today, she didnt want soccer to end here. Us to end here. I keep telling myself it isnt gna end. Was smiling when i said bye to Keli, but i cried like mad when i reached home. Y'know what, my body cant take it any longer, tell me when i wake up, we'll stay together like before.

Lone dreamer.

It's like winning the World Cup.

No, it's BETTER than winning the World Cup. HAHAHA.

(:

Off my back.

That's my HUMSUM brother. HAHA, with his PSP thingy. What's with boys and PSPs anyways. They cant seem to live without it.

Finally. We won the game against HwaChong. But God wasnt on our side todayy. So many shots taken, and none went in. Zilch.There was even one that struck the goalpost. I almost cried out loud. But we fought on luh. So yeah. I'm proud of everyone. HAHA Keli didnt even get to touch the ball in the second half. Tight defence man. HAHAHA. I asked her, she only touched the ball THREE times throughout the game. AND we had SO MANY CORNERS.
Yinghan went down to Nanyang todayy, but i didnt get to see her because of my game ): She texted me saying she's really hungry and our canteen is closed. HAHAHA yeah LOUSY CANTEEN that has damn bad food and THE STALLS CLOSE AT LIKE THREE PM. Ugh.
Meridian was quite nice. Their homecrowd's really strong. They have this HUGE drum or something, that goes BOOM BOOM BOOM and they cheer really loudly. How nice. I wish WE HAD THAT TOO. HAHAHA. I know, FAT HOPE right. But i can use Justin Kor Kor's tummy as a drum. WAHAHA.

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY HUIJEEN!(:
Y'know, Brad Pitt will be yours one day.
Angelina, back off man. HAHAHA.
Hope you liked the Flowers And Chocs.

When the ball hit the back of the net, I felt the explosion within all of us. WE DID IT. I felt vindicated. Imagine eleven girls jumping up and down on the pitch. And many others off the pitch.

Random Fact #1: Justina doesnt know what SODOMISE means. HAHAHA.

Huifang, dont be self-conscious okayy.Who cares about those idiots luh.WE LOVE YOU(:

Just remember when your dream appears
You belong to me

Two games left. HwaChong and Innova.
Have been thinking about the soccerettes of late. The two words 'Step down' scare me. I cant imagine life without the team, without trngs, without everything that has made me so complete. We went through so much, more than any other cca. They were born official. Us, we had to fight so hard. It has been so long, since we first started out. I live and breathe with the team. And it's almost coming to an end.

You belong to me.